“There is always a glimmer in those who have been through the dark.”
Atticus
Imagine you were trying to escape a stressful situation, you don’t have to look that far, every day life is already full of challenges of any kind. Preparing the kids for school in the morning, driving to work moving slower than most pedestrians, while constantly looking at your watch, feeling anxious, you probably won’t arrive at your meeting in time…There you are ! That’s probably enough stress to start your day with !
Most of us have been told to get rid off or to remove ourselves from stressful persons, events and places. That can work perfectly, sometimes, but all that you are trying to escape from most of the times is yourself…
Once you’ve removed yourself from a bad work environment or a bad relationship, you find yourself attracting another bad partner or evil colleague again !
It looks like you are constantly pushing a repeat button ! Pulling you into drama, drama, more drama, again more drama ! You feel tiredness creeping over you and you feel lost, you don’t necessarily feel depressed but you simply don’t know how much more you can cope untill complete nervous breakdown !
You start questioning yourself, your life, your work and relationships. Am I going nuts ? It is really that bad, isn’t it ? You become alienated from your true nature and at the very same time you feel that this world isn’t your home eighter ! You feel like wanting to unplug yourself completely, wipe out everything that has ever been downloaded in your system !
Your body is just slowing down, so you can remove the bad programs, the memories and attachments of life that don’t bring you anything at all but preventing you to go “faster” in life. Your body is asking to press the pauze button so you can change direction, to “recalibrate” yourself . Your body is asking help in choosing the right programs and downloads, what feels good for you ! Your body is waiting for you to stop resisting, to give up the fight !
This world, your outer circumstances, is like a mirror. If you want change don’t wait for it to just “pop up” one day ! Change yourself first, the world has nothing to give to you, it only shows what you are giving yourself, what you are allowing “in”. So what are the beliefs that you keep close but that are closing doors towards your dreams, what are the beliefs keeping your dreams at distance ? What negative program is still active but running in the background ? It can be a secret file hidden behind the walls of your heart.
Your subconscious often hides painful memories, it stores these as trapped emotions in your body, mostly at the location where the body is in pain. If you can’t seem to get access to certain core beliefs, your subconscious could have created a wall around your heart and it is very creative in doing this ! It can be made of any material you can imagine and relate to : concrete, rock, fire or wood ! I remember seeing mine as a giant skyscraper of entangled woods and holly plants, in medieval times they were used to avoid any entrance to the castle !
So shedding the old junk can be painful, your ego cries out loud, it is holding firmly to its old beliefs as its most priceful possessions. You doubt to press the delete button, afraid you will totally lose all data forever…The fact is that deep down inside of you, you know the old has to be burned to ashes. If you can look at your darkest night of the soul as a thorough cleansing process, necessary for personal growth, you will gain confidence in the ability to rise above it !
It’s not that after the experience of the darkest night of the soul you won’t have “dark” moments again, but you will be able to shine your light on it, meaning you are more conscious of it. Knowing these need not to be stored, nor hidden, they only need to be transformed by you !
Give yourself the liberating experience of deliberate choise !
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