In 1978 I got my first record player, I was 6 years old ! A cousin gave me a couple of albums he didn’t use anymore, my first collection was born ! A whole new world opened to me and I felt excited !
I loved putting my ears next to the speakers and feel the beat of the records vibrating through my whole body, bass to the max of course !
Yes kids, back then we could literally destroy an album and play it crazy, some to the extend that there were deep grooves in them and the needle could barely get over these ditches !
Can you barely get over an obstacle, are you unable to move forward in life, unable to solve your problems ? Do you have the feeling that nothing really ever works out for you ?
You have caused a nasty groove in your record ! Yes, you !
Are you stuck in sentences as : I can’t do it…It is useless…I am a failure… Are these the thoughts that you are repeating all over again to yourself ?
These are not exactly creating the kind of melody you were longing for isn’t ? Your habitual negative thoughts and beliefs can destroy the song you want to sing and make you lose the joy of dancing to life. You will just sink further into the hole that you have been creating for yourself.
Your subconsious mind is very powerful, but it is a powerstation without direction. It needs the right commands from your conscious mind to be able to create what you want in life !
You really have to impress it with the right mental images, you have to impregnate it with good feelings so it can give you the offspring you truly desire !
Let the desires that are in harmony with your heart cause a melodious groove in your life’s album. Let them overtake the negativity present in your life.
Each time you tend to your negative patterns, stop yourself in the process. Overrule them by stating : I am working with divine mind, I choose love, I choose happiness, I choose joy !
Let the groove come out of your heart and claim back your happiness right now !
A couple of years ago my son and I went to a speech therapist. According to school he had problems pronouncing the “rrrrrr” and they suggested us to get professional help…We received a list of therapists and picked one close to where we live.
I can still see it cleary in my mind ! It felt as if we were entering a dark and dusty attic. An old female therapist was seated at her desk, she seemed to be grown into her dark and brownish furniture. You would have wanted to poke her too to see if she were death…
But she came to senses and she started to show my son some pictures… She talked with a cold and severe voice, almost robotic. It left me imagining where her on/off button was.
Our hyper sensitive antennas were activated. My son turned his face towards me. What followed was a wordless conversation :
“This is creepy mom !”
“I know son ! Are you pondering what I am pondering ?”
“I wanna leave this place mom !”
“It looks surreal son, I’ll be happy too when we’re out of here….”
Have you ever experienced something like this ? You are looking for a good counselor, assistent, doctor, therapist…only to find out that you have been making the wrong choice. You are stuck with a creep and it just doesn’t feel good. There is lack of understanding, there is lack of real communication.
And these talks often take place in a strange, unusual, old, dusty environment… Or worse : a bright white clinical one ! Leaving you think nutty nurses can come out of the closet and handcuff you any minute….You start to feel odd and uncomfortable…
As if that looks inviting to start talking about your mental problems, your darkest secrets and deepest fears…
Not to mention you are standing face to face with the stereotype of all therapists : the old grumpy one ! Do you believe children can’t spot adult arrogance or faked interest ?
Wouldn’t you like to talk to someone who is passionate and excited and believe in what they are doing ? Someone who says : “Hey welcome dear friend ! Are you ready ?”
While putting a helmet in your hands that person says : “It’s going to be one hell of a ride ! Bumpy and usually with many upside downs. But I am your copilot. Fasten your seatbelt !”
I would rather have a provocative coach, who pushed me to the limits, who pushed several buttons at once but whose words wouldn’t just fade away.
I would rather like to have someone by my side who would loudly honk the horn during the ride…
“Hi people, do you hear the sound? This is the sound of pure pleasure. Do you wanna feel it, do you really wanna get high? So just close your eyes and relax. It will take you to a realm of joy and extacy. Come with me and you’ll see the violet sky of great paradise. Have a nice trip !”
“Emotions come and go. Remember to only process the feelings of a particular (negative) emotion for FIVE MINUTES and then let go ! Holding on to a negative emotion for more than 5 minutes is simply self-sabotage, denial and punishment !”
“Shadows dripping in silver light cast from an illusive moon, stir, then magically still, leaving doubts adrift in the mind of the observer…Was there movement of shadow within shadow or only the illusion of such, like breath caught on a summer breeze ?
Sister of Artemis, and Guardian of the Gateway between the Known and the Unknown, you prowl the Night, bearing witness to the blackness that exists before the dawning of morning Light. Blazing eyes pierce the veil of darkness of Forgotten Realms, to bring Consciousness to the Unconscious.
To follow your sleek and silent form as it glides as a spectral mist through the night, is to face the deepest fears that prowl the jungles of the Human Mind.
When we learn to move as you move, through those overgrown and tangled vines, we come to understand that even in the darkest of journeys, the Illuminating Rays of Faith and Acknowledgement will provide us with the Light to guide us safely on the Other Side.”
No, this isn’t another review of the movie – although it’s definitely on my list to watch. I want to talk about this gracious big cat that is a symbol for strength, prophecy and transformation.
I really do believe the black panther is my spirit animal. There are a lot of similarities between us. What does it mean when “the black panther” appears to you as a spirit guide or is near in your life ?
Black panthers are natural protectors and leaders
The black cats in my life have always considered themselves my guardian angels. My first cat that accompanied me through childhood was a black one, she was 18 when she passed away. Later Buffy became my black protector, she would have beaten you up whenever you came too close to me !
I remember the first time my boyfriend stayed over night, he got up with scars all over his face. You never know when their dark side takes over – especially when no one is watching !
Black panthers are the ultimate shapeshifters
Black panthers actually are leopards or jaguars with a genetic difference that gives them a black coat. Their authentic nature is hidden, you can only see slight color variations and spots when you are very close to the animal, so they are masters of disguise and are able to move through the dark without notice.
Black panthers encourage us to embrace our shadow side
Black panthers help us eliminate our fear of the dark and the unknown. They will guide us while we work through our fears. They urge us to expand our awareness and to become a “whole” new person. They tell you that you are safe while making this transition.
Black panthers enjoy solitude
Black panthers are born loners and will tend to connect to other solitary souls. They often move in and out of someone’s life, just to assist for a brief period of time. Panther people rarely reveal too much about themselves. They know when to be silent or rather let their actions speak.
Black panthers are symbol for strength and willpower
People tend to have an adoration for these animals because of their fierceness and strength. The black panther will show agression when it is cornered and won’t shy away from a fight if necessary.
If you have the black panther as your totem, you are likely to be brave, always prepared to go the extra mile and focused on getting what you want !
Black panther is curious and awakens our inner passions or our slumbering talents. The black panther urges us to reclaim our power, especially after a period of pain and suffering.
Black panthers are symbol of the feminine, sensitivity and sexuality
Black panthers often appear to women, they ask them to stand their own ground and use their natural given powers properly. This includes embracing all of who you are ! If you were victim of harassement or rape, the black panther will offer assistance in getting rid of feelings such as shame, blame and guilt.
Black panthers have prophetic qualities
Black panthers are very sensitive to energy and are extremely intuitive. They are able to read another’s energy and to even influence the thoughts and actions of others. They clearly see your motives and your intentions, making people think Black panther people can look in the future. Because of their understanding of people’s actions and motives, you better be honest with them, as they see through all the lies you tell ! They easily spot fake people.
Black panthers often struggle to find their own identity
They might feel as a stranger in a strange land. Absolutely not of this world ! Their direct approach can seem very threatening to others and they often catch attention undeliberately ! You will eighter love a panther or totally dislike them !
Transformation
When the spirit of the black panther is fully empowered within us they teach others that there is nothing in the darkness to be feared and that you can use the light to shine away all darkness !
It’s that time of the year…everyone is instigating eachother with germs. I was amongst the unlucky ones this week and got struck, I really felt miserable, unable to write, just feeling the need to rest and to sleep !
Monday I promised someone to be present at a meeting to offer him support but I was obliged to cancel it. By the end of the day, I had lost my voice completely !
I am still wondering whether this was a good thing or a bad thing. Soccer meetings are dangerous and can even get me mixed up further. I tell you why.
No one is speaking their truth anymore. No one “tells it as it is”. Sometimes there’s a lot of gossip going around before the meeting and you assume people will mention all of this…untill they are standing face to face with the person concerned, then they completely shut down !
So what follows is that me, highly sensitive as I am, after “reading” and collecting all the members’ frustrations I just spit them out ! There’s nothing funny about that really !
Before you have completed a sentence, there’s the moderator of the meeting, getting in defensive/aggressive mode, acting more as a buffer zone between the board and us.
It’s a constant play of throwing the ball back and forth without getting to a real solution. A game none of us can win. You might aswell play bullshit bingo…
A lot of people don’t realize that you can regard any group, company, club as a person. It has a spirit too. You don’t need a crystal ball to know that a sick mind will take sick actions eventually, there’s no difference with group “spirits”. I am convinced the board of our soccer club has a completely different agenda than ours.
There’s lack of focus, lack of vision, no structure at all. Instead of regarding their youthplayers as their potential and taking action towards their growth, supporting us with material and other needs, they are just sucking the life completely out of us ! It’s like they are slowly letting us bleed to death….
Being a strong advocate of putting the right man or woman at the right place, I even offered my services to help them but there was barely interest. All they could see was my wrapping paper that said “woman and blond”, useless to say I got my hands off it and these gentlemen lost an opportunity for good…
Do I often go to these meetings ? I used to …but not anymore, I am a lover, not a fighter ! I am a doer, not a talker ! They know I will be back when instead of arguing they will be inspired to take some real action !
And for those with eyes to see and ears to listen : all useful coaching information is on my website…
Yes, blogging is challenging ! Not because of the lack of inspiration, there’s plenty of that ! I am often inspired by daily life, the ponderings of my mind or the many inspirational reads from fellow bloggers !
The challenging part is the disturbance around me, just when I am in the middle of my “writer’s trance” !
Challenge n°1 is a teenager and soccer player, constantly craving for food. “Mom, what are we eating ?” “Mom, I am hungry, can you prepare me a snack ?”
“Just a minute son !”
“Mom ?”
“Bear with me son !”
Half an hour later he’s obliged to ask the same questions again, making me feel a distracted mother neglecting my child’s primal needs…I stumble to the kitchen…
Challenge n°2 are other beings in the house who use other, advanced methods of attracting my attention when they are hungry…Cats !
Although James looks an innocent and devoted cat, he’s very convincing and stubborn but predictable in his actions ! He often seems a child throwing up a tantrum. When he’s in hungry mode I have to watch every step I take, he always aims at my legs, preventing me from going out of the kitchen !
Or he violently jumps on the table, unable to control his landing ! He lost his sense of equilibrium, after his tail got amputated (due to an injury). Now he has no brakes at all and my laptop usually means “bulls eye” !
Complete mindfulness in seconds ! (Try that yourself !) He drops unconscious on my keyboard ! Playing dead !
What follows seems to be a discussion between my puberal son and me !
“James, get off my computer !” “No mom !”
“James, mom needs to work !” “Who cares mom !”
“James, I am going to pick you up !” “Not funny, mom !”
There is only one way to get rid of him : pushing him gently by his butt off the computer, shoving him to the left of my keyboard.
One moment of distraction, a sip from my cup of coffee is enough to get him plotting against me again ! There’s his head back on my keyboard, followed by his paws, all stretched out, ready to take a nap!
His favorite occupations on my laptop : asking help from windows, putting on his favorite music on Foobar or complete shutdown !
I once thought I was hallucinating when I found my screen completely turned upside down. (You can press and hold the Ctrl and Alt keys while pressing left, right, up, down to rotate the screen in a different direction, little did I know !) Allthough it inspired me to use upon my colleagues on april fools’ day !
My fingers are barely allowed to touch the mouse. In my cats’ attempts to draw my hand off it, they often start writing their own language : 54ùopùm4l4i48ù or µµµµµµµµµµµµµµ
If you happen to read a message like this, I was probably hijacked by one of the cats who prevented me from blogging ! Here is the proof !
Phuro! 